I just thought it was rant time once again folks. Because there’s something I really don’t get sometimes. And something in return, a lot of you probably don’t get as well.
I know people that take prescription drugs just for fun, we all do. It’s not exactly uncommon, especially in high school. Especially at my high school ahem. (Oh Evanston how we love you so.) I get the general aspect of it, I mean I’m not exactly a straight-edge angel or anything myself! But the thing is, what is the point? Why don’t you stick to the average weed and alcohol and shit? Using prescription drugs to get high is just kind of dumb honestly. Because they’re just that- prescription.
It actually annoys me so much when people do that. Like really, do you understand what it feels like in my head when I try to do things I even really want to accomplish and just can’t? I try so hard and for the life of me just cannot manage to get through anything (as do lot’s of other people struggling with similar disorders.) Yes, it has its ups and downs and there’s that rare occasion where I can get some work done without meds, but it takes double the time. So you can see how thankful I am and how much I appreciate their benefit to my life. No, I don’t have cancer, I don’t have to prick my finger every few hours to make sure my glucose levels are in balance because of diabetes, but I struggle everyday, too. Mentally. Everyone with any type of disorder is equal in the way that they’re suffering. This is why I accept everyone. I know what it’s like to feel frustrated and depressed and like an idiot and like nothing you do will ever be right. You never know what someone else is dealing with.
So none of these people taking prescriptions for fun have any idea these drugs’ actual purposes. They just take it for what, to get a feeling of high? Their perfect focusing abilities going to waste, while I’m sitting here tearing my hair out trying to get through the same sentence for the 8th time. If you are diagnosed with something like ADHD, you’re not receiving an unfair advantage! Medications make you equivalent to a normal person! The chemical imbalance in my brain is being made up for, so I can function just like you can without even having to think about it. My first day on Adderall I thought Damn! This is how normal people think? Holding a thought or being able to finish a task for as long as they want? This is amazing! Because I’d never been able to do that before. I could honestly say for the first time, not from being drunk or high or eating too many marshmallows, that I was on top of the world. Because I really could do anything. For the first time, my brain actually worked the way it’s supposed to.
But for me, it never ends. Just like anyone else with a medical issue. Humans take all that we have for granted sometimes, because it could all be gone, in the blink of an eye.
This is the reason I think of all of you people lucky enough to have normal brains (so to speak, prescription abuse aside) as lucky! You don’t have to try 3 times as hard just to read a fucking test question or do a math problem. You are blessed with the natural ability to fully live up to your potential. So use it.
Value what you’ve got up there, please. For me, and all those other millions of kids dealing with something they shouldn’t have to. Because if there ever comes a time when you aren’t so lucky anymore and it all disappears, then where will you be? You’ll wish you’d made better decisions earlier.